Do you have suicidal thoughts when not taking Lyrica? Are you also dealing with addiction? Are you exceeding the recommended dosage? I take up to 2300 mg when I have suicidal thoughts. God, I want to die. I live only because my family will be sad when I’m gone. Please don’t hate people struggling with suicide. I respect them. They just want to be free of pain. I want to be free too. This is our life, and we should have the choice to die.
2300mg is over 4x the recreational dose. That is literal insanity. No offense as Im sure you have used lyrica a lot longer and more than I do, but:
I took 150mg for a few months daily, without exceeding dosage and tapering by 10mg steps caused me to have suicidal thoughts. It took me 2 months to get off and I had waves of suicide ideations coming onto me all along.
You have suicidal thoughts not when “not taking lyrica”. You have them when there is any, even slight, change of consistency in dosages. Its extremely reliable in giving me suicidal thoughts.
Im not sure how you take it (recreationally every few days, consistently or both), but not taking the same dose at all times is really good at giving you random substance induced ideation.
I wish you all the best because this will be one of the hardest rides for you! You deserve the help whether you want to live or die!
Also props for Lain, I really loved that series.
Thank you for your response.
No offense as Im sure you have used lyrica a lot longer and more than I do
A year and a half ago, my psychiatrist prescribed it to me, but I didn’t feel any changes, so I postponed taking it. During the last summer, I experienced a severe bout of suicidal thinking. I reached for the pregabalin and without much thought, consumed 900 mg. I wasn’t sure if something would happen if I exceeded the maximum dose or not. I trembled a bit and had uncontrollable limb movements, but the suicidal thoughts disappeared. I was extremely happy and energetic. It was five months ago, and since then, I’ve been taking a high dose almost every week. Over time, I started feeling less and less, so I increased my dosage, and I ended up at 2300 mg. A month ago, I ran out of preg. I experienced sleep disturbances, tossing and turning all night, unable to fall asleep. I was drenched in sweat, felt nauseous, and couldn’t eat anything. Suicidal thoughts crossed my mind. I went to my doctor who prescribed me pregabalin. After taking it for 2 days, everything returned to normal. Currently, I take 300 mg daily (2 tablets of 150 mg), one tablet in the morning and one in the evening. When I encounter suicidal thoughts or fall into a strong depressive state, I take 2300 mg, on average, once a week.
You have suicidal thoughts not when “not taking lyrica”. You have them when there is any, even slight, change of consistency in dosages. Its extremely reliable in giving me suicidal thoughts.
It doesn’t seem to me that you’re correct. I haven’t observed anything like that.
I wish you all the best because this will be one of the hardest rides for you! You deserve the help whether you want to live or die!
Also props for Lain, I really loved that series.
Lain and depression don’t mix. I watched half of it and had to leave the series. I was coming back late from university, dealing with depression and anxiety. I would play one episode, eat something, and go to sleep. Lain only intensified my depression, so I abandoned watching it further. Somehow, after about half a year, I returned to the series and watched it to the end. But I preferred Haibane Renmei. I mention it due to the connection between these two series.
I only really ever had suicidal thinking that was induced by some kind of substance. I was borderline out of comission for over 2 years because of my stomach and that was the most suffering I ever experienced, but suicidal is not the main vibe I would describe it as.
On the other hand lyrica withdrawal is good at actually making me so. It is still a more grounded kind of suicidal thinking where I am sad and just dont want to continue. If it is already the case for you, it CAN still exacerbate it, you shouldnt underestimate it, not at that dosage. I wont go back to read my comment if I said it, but when I did it recreationally, all at once, it ended up in a 4 day cycle where suicidal dread would start appearing 4 days after consumption as that is when all of it really left my body. Do not underestimate the half life of this damn substance.
Im not saying you must feel suicidal, but you could have a hard time making out whether this or that actually causes it. For me to find out anything about myself, I need to minimize a lot of circumstantial stuff before I feel confident that I understand what might be causing a certain mindstate or feeling in me. Tooks a damn long time and I have to iterate on solutions A LOT so that I have any semblance of knowing what is going on.
When I put down lyrica for my anxiety+pain+depression (as it made me a vegetable), I wanted to get on something that has a net benefit the more you take it. I chose an SSRI. The thing is, I was not looking for an easy way out, but wanted to get to that “place” where you actually get the anxiety supression and emotional stabilization that would not require me to be on active lookout for sideeffects of a nasty addictive substance.
It ended up being a 3+ month uphill battle to get my benefits. The more I realized this, the more it hit me just how damn long some of these things take to play out. Im not sure you can gain this insight without actually going through with it. Unless you do it, you wont get accustomed to the timescale of you getting better. Probably my stomach has been improving for most of an entire year and I doubt myself every day if it really does.
Lain and depression don’t mix. I watched half of it and had to leave the series. I was coming back late from university, dealing with depression and anxiety. I would play one episode, eat something, and go to sleep. Lain only intensified my depression, so I abandoned watching it further. Somehow, after about half a year, I returned to the series and watched it to the end. But I preferred Haibane Renmei. I mention it due to the connection between these two series.
Hmm, Im sure this is by far not the best one to feel better. :,D. Lain does not have much of a saving grace for the feeble minded, but I’m sure you expected as much in the first place Im a sucker for series about suffering. I will take a look at Haibane as well, seems something up my alley.
Something actually deep and relatable when I feel terrible might be Made In Abyss. My favourite anime ever.
