I am. I first met him when the marriage was proposed / set. Then until the meeting we got to know each other a bit - but never alone, there always had to be someone around - not allowed for us to be alone together until we were married. I liked that he was a good listener and showed interest in whatever I was talking about. The wedding night was the first time we were alone together. It was really weird for me, like before that no boys allowed now suddenly sleeping next to a man in bed? Too huge of a transition. As a matter of fact we didn’t consummate until a while after as I didn’t feel comfortable and he didn’t push or pressure me.